I've forgotten what I started fighting for.

Yes I do know that there is a lack of posts  but I have been somewhat busy. Let me give a brief recap of two semesters worht of misfires in the Burg.

Showed up in the spring at a new complex. I met up with a home ward homie and some of his friends for swimming. There was a girl in the group who caught my eye fairly quick. We started hanging out with multiple friends. One thing lead to another and making out became the usual thing to do.  She became conflicted in the fact she would be leaving mid-term for home and not be returning. Because of said conflict, she would be affectionate one day and be distant the next. Long story short, she left and I got over it.

Fast forward to September, new roommates and new girls in the ward which would translate to new opportunities. One girl moved way too fast for my roommate to handle. This girl was playing with his hair and making blatant hints that they should be at dinner in a non-dating first encounter. He had invited a girl to a bonfire afterwards. So, I intervened to help a brother out. She immediately set her sights on me as a potential boyfriend. It didn't help that another roommate was trying to hook up with one of her roommates. Now, I am a generally nice guy and willing to lend a hand in the pursuit of another man's happiness. This doesn't not work well when she clings to you like cellophane.

I went on a few social dates to follow up of any interest I had. One of those dates I just let go because I could see nothing in the future. Date 2 had a boyfriend and she wasn't sure if she wanted to fully give up on him. I gave her the deuces. The third girl earned my respect when she shot me down.

If I could offer all the girls out there one quick word of advice on dating, it would be the following. Be upfront with your feelings. There is nothing worse than to have us invest time, money and emotion into something you clearly see not working.

Well, that should be it in a nutshell. Looks like we will have to wait until spring rolls around.


Deuce, Deuce.

Decadence in the new decade

It's the start of a new year/decade and I am wondering "what the hell am I doing in Florida". Seriously don't get me wrong. As much as I love being home with family, there is no real target for my affection. I took a look around the stake and turns that once again I round out the top two attractive looking males out here and quite possibly the top five for both genders.
Let's score this dilemma a la UFC, 5 round championship bout:

1. Dating Scenes
• Down here, previously mentioned there are slim pickings to choose from. As my brother would add "and the picking aren't that slim". There are some cute girls down here to could be datable....as soon as they graduate high school and join the grown-up world. 
• Out in Idaho, the dating scene is kind of like shooting fish in a barrel. High proportion of girls to guys. 
• Score 10-8 Idaho
2. Weather
• Down here the low is around 50 for maybe a week and then jumps back up to a measly 65-68 range with nice sunshine and tranquil seabreezes
• Idaho would be lucky if the low is above freezing.
• Score 10-7 Florida
3. Employment
• Currently looking for a job while rehabbing rental homes for my dad. Think home flipping but in some predominantly black and latino areas. Applications have been spread out like a shotgun but no takers. I guess that is what happens when unemployment is 12-13%. Too smart for the entry level stock boy, not enough experience to be management material.
• I have no idea what the unemployment rate is out there in potato country but I feel I could land a decent job at the movie theater or Winger's.
• Score 10-9 Idaho
4. Social Scene (because as we all know being social is not exclusivly dating nor vice versa)
• Virtually inexistant because the people my age either get wasted or are married. Living at home with your parents may not help the situation
• Virtually limitless
• Score 10-7 Idaho
5. Intangibles
• Free laundry, not having to pay rent and not really worrying about layers
• Girls, girls, fun, and girls
• Score 10-9 Florida only because of the free stuff

The final decision: 46-45 declaring the winner by split decision Idaho

I guess I should have stayed out there and tried to get some attention from the girls.

Every New Beginning Comes From Some Other Beginning’s End

As the semester winds down, I come to reflect on what I have done, what I should have done, and what I have missed out.

Naturally feelings of regret and pride make their way to the surface as I think back on the semester at hand.

What I have done fills with a sense of accomplishment while the deflating feelings of regret knock me down a few pegs. Prime example is with the girl from the previous post. I am happy to have gone out with her and get to know her better. However, the fact still remains that I will probably never have a chance to further the relationship. The regret of not asking her out sooner will probably ruin chances with any other girl I am remotely interested in. I know have one that got away. I will have to redouble my efforts in order to prevent a similar situation while at home during the winter and during the upcoming semesters. I know that I probably won’t be dating back at home considering the fact that there would most likely be no one I will be remotely interested in.

Delay of Game

This is start of my official search the right lady to settle down with. Now, I know I don't have the best game in the world but I have not been playing the field for about three years. Seeing that I am getting old and soon enough will be leaving college for a job, I figure now is the best time to find Mrs. Right instead of Ms. Right-Now. Between the romantic endeavors and the hassles of the college life, there must be a nice balance of pleasure and pain.

I went out on a date with a girl from my ward and I believe it went well. I am not good a picking up on how girls actually feel or think but she said she enjoyed it as well. She is 5'4", brunette with brown eyes from California. She is a nursing major and only needs two years of college for the basic nursing degree.

The problem is that she will be at school during the winter semester for her last semester during which time I will not be at school. I thoroughly enjoyed the company of this young lady and am furious that I will lose probably the girl I could live with forever. If not this girl, then preferably someone with a lot of the same characteristics of this girl comes into my life.

• Athletic
• Out-going
• Smart
• Funny

Why am I always late to pull the trigger and get things done in my love life? Why must I feel like I am not good enough to be in the presence of an extremely beautiful and fun girl? Why do I lack the confidence to start relationships with people I am attracted to? If I could get a couple more date I can at least get to know her better and quite possibly make it serious.